Valentine's Day - 13th Feb

Valentines's Day, a day supposedly to love all things, which includes for family and friends and whoever or whatever that you actually care about. A day to show your love for them as St.Valentine is supposedly the deity of love and care. But living in a world of commercialization and media dominance, how can one not associate it with the lovey-dovey feeling associated with lovers and coupling relationship between a male and female (or some other variation which I wouldn't mention here.) ? Indeed, I've got the same bug too.

Well, in fact, it's actually tomorrow but coincidently, this year, Valentine's Day falls in the exact sane day as the first day of Chinese New Year, so, tomorrow has been reserved for anything CNY. MSN once asked in a poll: "Were you secretly glad that this year Valentine's Day falls on CNY?"...Well, truthfully, I answered: Yes, I am.....at least I didn't have to call every other friend and listening to their plans on how they're gonna spend it with their other or how there's a couples' discount in this restaurant or that....

And yes, you would've already guess that I don't have someone to share Valentine's Day...yet. (Many people, my relatives actually, have already been enquiring about it but I've always tried avoidng answering them...) I know some people who knows me would say: "You're really sad case". The thing is, I don't care. Even if I've to live my whole life alone and miserable, until I've found a perfect one, there won't be one and that's final. No More Questions....Some of my friends and closest relatives, with some even younger than I am, have either been married or in a great relationship with another significant other...which somehow makes it feels even worse for myself...

Maybe one day, I might find someone to share this with (I know that I've said this last year too).....
Life is full about maybe's. Well, I'm gonna go think about tomorrow's Chinese New Years Day....
The Road remains traveled alone...

Oh, to whoever relevant:
Happy Valentine's Day!

Valentine's Day 14th Feb 2009

Its the 14th of February 2009 again, and I have yet to meet the one and only one. Actually I'm kind of sad as now I'm already 24+ years old and yet still no one to fill the empty void in my life. Makes me wonder, am I going to be staying single to my old age? Shall I ever feel a women's love? Shall I ever be feeling the warmth of a women's heart? (..sigh..i wont know what has fate planned for me..)

Well, the reason why I chose Valentine's day to be my first blog day is so that I can remember how painful today has always been. Seeing other people hand-in-hand walking in malls, eating fancy dinners at posh places, all the shopping hype and the feeling of having someone to share your life with is most strong today every year. It fills me not with envy, but with lonliness....I can only imagine walking down the long way that is called "Life" and cold winds blowing on my face while other people hand-in-hand walk past me, smiles in their face, talking happily to their soul mates and sharing every pain and joy they meet along the way...it sure makes me feel left out somehow...

At this moment, the song "Love Me Tender" by Elvis Presley is being sung on television. The lyrics is definitely romantic for couples...but to singles like me...it just...just makes me feel extremely lonely...Seeing my friend writing a blog to express his love for his girl has also the same effect on me...Really cant shake the feeling away....and gave me the idea for this poem:-

This long road of life,
Ahead I can see not,
The sky is dark and gloomy,
And cold winds avoid I cannot,
I trudge along wearily alone,
For the person I am supposed to meet,
Reached have I not,
This person I know not,
But reach her I hope,
Before the sand in the glass falls;

I squint my eyes to see,
Between the howling winds filled with cold air,
Only to look at warmth specks ahead and behind,
Hurry along the road I did,
Filled with hope,
To see her standing there waiting for me,
Only to find people hand-in-hand,
Walking together with full energy and vigor,
Cold they feel not,
As they cover a warm thing precious to the roads:-,
LOVE it is called,

Wondering when I can find my speck of warmth,
Lose and forget it never shall I,
For I shall preserve,
I know she some where along the road too,
Only waiting to be met,
In this cold and lonely road which a long way there is to go,
I ask myself;
Where are you? Where are you?

I really hope that this feeling would be gone next year and things would change for the better. Hopefully at this time next year, I can show this message to my loved one: "I Love You!"