1st Bad Day in Blog - 27th Feb

As usual, I went to work on a normal Friday, it was raining earlier in the morning and it has stopped quite a while...I parked my car in a spot and went to look for the parking ticket machine...found and went to one...inserted some coins and suddenly...the machine "spit" out all my coins amounting to Rm3.50...that's strange...that's not supposed to happen..and went to another machine and the same thing happened...went to another and again it happened while in fact I didn't do anything wrong. In total, I changed machines for around 6 times...I was wandering around the area round-and-round without any purpose. I did give a thought to not paying the parking ticket but the fines was too heavy too bear....no matter what, I had to pay the ticket! Finally at the 7th time and the 3rd time at the same machine...I got it to work...the trick was to insert the coins as fast as you could and the as the machines permitted...But, I still think I had a bit of bad luck there.

Indonesia's Hatred - 25th Feb

Recently (again) horrifying pictures of Chinese people, young ones especially filled my email when I checked it one day. I was again shocked and horrified. The pictures were taken in Indonesia (time unknown), showing chinese people without bodies, they were beheaded and used as trophies. There was one where there was this small kid's head raised up high by man, sort of leading the mob...they were cheering...it was like they were happy with what they have done...

Another one showed the picture of a pretty lady (supposedly pretty as the inset picture claims the body to be) lying in the middle of the road, naked and it was said that she was also raped...some showed their heads on top of racks (with hair still intact) or lying on the roads....And guess what? They were also raped...Kill and rape? What could be worse than that? These pictures were indeed disheartening, until now I could still imagine the pictures in my head....and I'm glad that I'm still alive. These beheadings just makes no sense...did the chinese people act selfishly? Did they harass the locals? Did they betray the country? Can anyone out there, especially those depicted in the pictures care to explain their actions? Do the victims deserve to be beheaded like that? Are the chinese people even worse than animals to be treated like so?....Sad...

But it makes me wonder, is it the Muslim side in these people that hates the chinese or is it the Indonesian people themselves that hates the Chinese? Even here, we are not spared from the prejudice my the supposedly "local" people. No doubt, you can chinese people almost anywhere on the globe. And they work hard for themselves, but why all the hatred? Its not that we cant be tolerant...but sometimes, all we want are just a fair treatment...is that so hard? No one can say that they are the original inhabitants of the place...no one can claim so...But it seems, especially in Muslim dominated countires, the chinese are always dispised....why?

(I chose to have the pictures omitted to avoid disheartening the reader...)
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The Real Truth of Life

Recently, a fiend of mine (Hiromi) sent me an email titled: "Natural...without make-up & touched". Before opening it, I knew from the title that it is something about people or actors and actresses without their make-up and touching up. I was prepared to face the truth, of how they looked like when they did not apply their make-up...it wouldn't be that bad...was my first thought. Next thing, I was scrolling down, looking at the pictures of various Asian Stars in their all natural glory....

My first expression: OMG! Some of them looked like the old people selling things in the pasar malam (night market) near my place. Although, some still maintain their looks even without make-up (real natural beauty) but some...short to say, I was totally overwhelmed with horrid.
The list made up of popular female actors such as: Qi Qi, Karen Mok, S.H.E, Rainie Yang, Gigi Lai and some I forgot the name. Here's one of the more horrible transformation ones:-



Whats her name? Forgot...but gosh...she looks way old..


Jolin Tsai? Is that you? (But the left pix looks kinda "off" to me)

Some looks just a bit off:-

Karen Mok...looks the same..


Rainie Yang...still ok...


S.H.Who? Selina..ugh...Hebe...ugh...Ella still maintains

Looking at them, it does make me wonder...people we sometimes idolize, or want to be like them, public figures, do they all actually hide the truth from us? Are they actually mocking that life is never perfect or it was never even pretty. Things we thought are pretty, turns out to be quite normal...or are they telling us that, pretty things are just in fact an illusion and cannot be achieved? But, I do not know who put up or found these pictures, but the intention was clear: to defame these people....in fact, some of the pix looks "doctored".....while some looks like taken from different time frames...is it a true photo?

Memories From SRK Sri Petaling

18th February 2009

Its been almost 13 years since I last saw my friends from SRK Sri Petaling where I had my Primary education. Its just today that I saw the pictures of Adrian Yong, Winnie Boey and Diane Goon. Especially Adrian, we were considerably close during those years (1994 i think to 1996). I was always with the Yong's, my pal: Yong King Lee and Adrian Yong. I remember Adrian to have always brought bread for recess. It sure does make me smile thinking bout it...Time flies really fast and now Adrian doesnt look so much as he was before in Sri Petaling..he looks more mature now and more like a Dad....

As for Diane and Winnie...they probably dont remember who I am. Probably because I did not stand out as much as Vi Lex, Ze Han, Sau Choong, Syazwani etc (these guys are the pros in Std.6 at the time, pro in studies, more on the pretty side in terms of looks and...pro in sports, almost a perfect match...everyone wanted to be like them)...and I too have blurish memories about them. In fact, I know them by name and looks (I was particularly shy at the time to talk to girls...haha...). Diane used to be one of the tallest personalities in Std.6 while Winnie was one the prettiest girls around...A lot of guys used to have a crush on her...haha..but that excludes me...I wasnt as she was really a haughty girl to me and not worth my attention....lol.

But, seeing them makes me wonder, where are the rest of the people? I managed to catch back some names which was ong forgotten but some, totally out...Names I could catch: Ivy Tan, Syakira, Michelle Ong, Azzahir, E.Lynn, Dinesh....I could remember the faces of the rest, but...haha...probably I wasnt very close with them. I was wondering maybe we should organize a gathering of some sort....There's probably a lot of catching up to do.

UM Life Begins - 17th February

Started to go to Universiti Malaya (UM) here in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia on 17th Febraury. My first location was the UM library. Afetr registering, I proceeded to floors above me. In total, the main UM building has 4 floors, each housing different articles / books / documents. had to take an elevator as I couldnt find the staircase. 1st impression = OMG! Its huge and lots and lots of space. Much much more space than the one they have in UTHM back when I was studying Degree there. The strange thing: I got lost there and I did not know where are everything.

Walked around looking for the books, and I finally had to ask the people there, but at first, still dont know where. I was standing there resting when I looked around, I finally saw the book shelves. 4-storey full of it. Had to climb up to look for my books. Bad thing is: no-air conditioning...It's really hot and stuffy up there...I was swaeting away while looking for my books. Later went to the thesis area to search for my supervisor's theis as referene. Agiain, lots of it.Lunch time came, but didnt eat anyhting as I still do not thea eating places, no proper signs for eating palces....In short, the experience was soomething really different for me compared to UTHM.

But, finally I've stepped into the place that I've always wanted to enter!
I'm really looking foward to my experience in UM!

Valentine's Day 14th Feb 2009

Its the 14th of February 2009 again, and I have yet to meet the one and only one. Actually I'm kind of sad as now I'm already 24+ years old and yet still no one to fill the empty void in my life. Makes me wonder, am I going to be staying single to my old age? Shall I ever feel a women's love? Shall I ever be feeling the warmth of a women's heart? (..sigh..i wont know what has fate planned for me..)

Well, the reason why I chose Valentine's day to be my first blog day is so that I can remember how painful today has always been. Seeing other people hand-in-hand walking in malls, eating fancy dinners at posh places, all the shopping hype and the feeling of having someone to share your life with is most strong today every year. It fills me not with envy, but with lonliness....I can only imagine walking down the long way that is called "Life" and cold winds blowing on my face while other people hand-in-hand walk past me, smiles in their face, talking happily to their soul mates and sharing every pain and joy they meet along the way...it sure makes me feel left out somehow...

At this moment, the song "Love Me Tender" by Elvis Presley is being sung on television. The lyrics is definitely romantic for couples...but to singles like me...it just...just makes me feel extremely lonely...Seeing my friend writing a blog to express his love for his girl has also the same effect on me...Really cant shake the feeling away....and gave me the idea for this poem:-

This long road of life,
Ahead I can see not,
The sky is dark and gloomy,
And cold winds avoid I cannot,
I trudge along wearily alone,
For the person I am supposed to meet,
Reached have I not,
This person I know not,
But reach her I hope,
Before the sand in the glass falls;

I squint my eyes to see,
Between the howling winds filled with cold air,
Only to look at warmth specks ahead and behind,
Hurry along the road I did,
Filled with hope,
To see her standing there waiting for me,
Only to find people hand-in-hand,
Walking together with full energy and vigor,
Cold they feel not,
As they cover a warm thing precious to the roads:-,
LOVE it is called,

Wondering when I can find my speck of warmth,
Lose and forget it never shall I,
For I shall preserve,
I know she some where along the road too,
Only waiting to be met,
In this cold and lonely road which a long way there is to go,
I ask myself;
Where are you? Where are you?

I really hope that this feeling would be gone next year and things would change for the better. Hopefully at this time next year, I can show this message to my loved one: "I Love You!"